I think if anyone would to ask me now, "What are you best at?", I will have no doubt but to answer, WORRYING.... I bet my hubby will agree with that totally, with no second thoughts.... :|

News flash, my current worry is for my daughter to have a closer relationship with the maid/sitter as compared to me.... That she'll go running to the maid/sitter rather than to me.... Is it just me, or does any other mothers out there feels the same way???? I guess I'm VERY afraid of it happening, and end up stressing myself with worry, that I will not be able to accept it when I see it happening.... Can anyone tell me how does one prevent it from happening, considering I don't have the luxury of staying at home and not go to work?????

Anyhow, I logged into friendster today and saw a link to horoscope saying the below (for today):

The Bottom Line

Avoid spending time on your personal worries now. Distract yourself with work.

In Detail

Whatever personal dramas, problems and worries are on your mind right now don't have to stay on your mind. If you're sick of introspection and just want to continue your day without too much turmoil, go ahead and do it. Turn off that emotional voice in your head and distract yourself with work or study. Sometimes overthinking things gets you wandering around in circles, getting nowhere. Take a break and just live life without pondering every detail.

I'm trying to get Rachel's beautiful smile on camera, but she seem to always smile at me when I don't have my camera in hand, and as soon as I grab the camera, she'll just STARE at me/camera!! :(

Anyhow, I was snapping away on my camera phone the other day, and when I look back, I like this photo VERY much. I now have it as the wallpaper of my phone, where I see it everytime I look at my phone, and I just can't get tired of it. When I sent it to hubby, his reply was, "She's so cute in the phone". On another day, he said "she makes people want to sayang (love) her on that photo"..... For me, I think the photo captured her cuteness, and I just don't get tired of STARING at it. So here, my personal favourite photo of her as of now.... Cute leh????? :D

Labels: Rachel Huan

I know I've just added a blog entry an hour or so ago, but I was just faced with this, and thought I'd blog about it, while I am still onlin.....

I guess it's a normal thing, where at every stage of your life, people tend to ask u the same old same old questions....

Eg:
When you are studying....
- when are you going to graduate?
- where are you studying?
- what course are you in?

When you graduated....
- have you found a job?
- where are you working?
- what do you do?
- got boyfriend (bf)/ girlfriend (gf) or not?
- when are you going to get yourself a bf/gf? (if you don't already have one)

When you are in a relationship.....
- when are you getting married?

When you are married and childless.....
- when are you planning to have kids?

When you have just been blessed with a little kiddo.....
- who does the baby look like?
- how do you feel about parenthood?
- how many kids are you planning to have?
- when are you planning to have the next kid?

Now Now... I know it's all just ice breaker or topic starter, but sometimes, it's pretty annoying... SERIOUS!! Well, from the flow of the questions I have put up, I'm sure you fall into/experienced at least 1 of the examples, and have been irrated by it one time or another..... For now, I fall into the scenario of the last example, and *OMIGOD* it's annoying!!!!!

How I know who the baby look like, and seriously, does who the baby look like THAT important??? OK OK, i'm cool, it's ok to ask, but don't ask me EVERY single time you see me online, or every single time you talk to me. Yeah, everyone heard of the saying, babies changes look ALL the time.... but doesn't justify the need to ask me 'who does Rachel look like, you or your husband?' every other day!! :P
For me, she looks like herself, Rachel Huan! PERIOD! It doesn't matter if she looks more like my husband or me, this question should only be so significant in the case of the father of the child is not my husband... Then I will have to worry every single day, if the baby will turn out looking like that guy I had a one night stand with, or the guy I had a 2 monts affair with, or my husband... THEN it will be significant, else, her genes comes from either my husband or me, and which of the 2 she resembles more, DOES NOT MATTER!

When I'm getting another kid? Please, I have not even settled into the routine/schedule/lifestyle of this kid, I have not and choose not to, think of the next. I still am scared of the post natal experience of confinement month, so I'm just tempted to tell you I DON'T PLAN TO HAVE ANOTHER! So if I choose not to think of when I'm getting a 2nd baby, I don't think it's an appropriate time to ask me how many kids I'm planning to have in total....

How is motherhood? If you are so interested, get one. :D
No, I'm serious... Get one.... Cuz, I really don't know how to explain to you... All I can say is, OK LA! :P

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I'm STILL on maternity leave.... :D

I'm without internet connection for most of my time at home, as there's no phone line in the apartment, and I'm too lazy to come over to my mum's house. Everything evolves around Rachel now, even my schedules is depending on hers! Bringing her out is pretty troublesome for now, having to ensure that I have all the necessities ready, and before leaving the house, ensuring that she has been fed, cleaned, and rested enough, and so on and so forth!!!!

Sitting at home, seeing time passing by, that sucks... Like counting down to the days where I have to go back to work again! Unappreciative idiot I AM!! Worrying about what's coming up, and letting go of what's happening.... hahaha.... But its crazy, like I'm looking forward to weekends, where hubby will be at home with us, but with every coming of a weekend, it also signifies the lost of another week of maternity leave.... :(

Rachel's timing is chaotic, she sleeps in the day time, and fusses at night!! I'm trying to push her time around, but I don't know if I'm doing it correctly!! I worry about a zillion things too.... It's all stressing me up!!! I really have to 'stop worrying and start living'. (The title of the book hubby has handed to me to read! :D)

Labels: Ramblings